Stephen.Hunt

Sep 25, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.20 Acceptance

Acceptance is hard. Part of why it is hard is because it requires understanding. Understanding is connected to reality. A major part of...

Sep 25, 20231 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.19 Relapse / Denial

There was a mentality I had early on in my therapy that did not serve me well. I thought that if I could just heal, I'd be able to have a...

Sep 25, 20231 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.18 Narrative

Part of not owning your own life is not owning your own narrative. My mom took my narrative away from me by slandering my name and...

Jun 30, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.17 Grief

The first time I became conscious of grief was when my dad passed away. That was a major loss for me. I remember feeling just miserable,...

Jun 30, 20233 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.16 The Body Keeps The Score

Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (CPTSD) is an interesting phenomenon. In a nutshell, when bad things happen to you, your body...

Jun 28, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.15 You Give What You Get

People usually say, "You get what you give." I believe it's the opposite. What is trauma? It is the damage we've received from others...

Jun 21, 20231 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.14 Victim

I was victimized. Without going into self-pity, I'll just share what my therapist told me. Your experience does not define you.

Jun 21, 20233 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.13 Unconditional Love

I am comfortable saying unconditional love was the single most important concept to my healing journey. Accepting that as what I needed...

Jun 20, 20231 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.12 Give to Myself

As I started to uncover all the holes that existed in my life, I have to admit I started to feel quite hopeless. I wasn't loved growing...

Jun 20, 20231 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.11 Love

One of the bigger issues I had in coming to terms with my mom was why she did what she did. What made her different from me? Why did I...

Apr 21, 20233 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.10 Intergenerational Trauma

The only homework I ever received from my therapist (it was more of a recommendation) was to read one of two books - Trapped in the...

Apr 14, 20231 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.9 Anger

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU?!! WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM? WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?!!! GET AWAY FROM ME! LEAVE.ME.ALOOOOOONE!!!!...

Apr 14, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.8 Work

Therapy is work. It is work you do with the help of somebody else. I remember driving to work one day being very aware of this. How...

Apr 6, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.7 Reality

Reality is a very hard problem if you think about it. What is real? Am I real? Is this a simulation? How do I know? Can I know? It gets...

Apr 5, 20231 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.6 I Must Be Unhealthy

Throughout all this time, I was paranoid. I constantly worried that I was crazy, that I had an unhealthy mind. I brought it up with my...

Mar 22, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.5 Estrangement

It's not easy to explain how something like estrangement starts. The best I can come up with is it started by me being fed up. I was fed...

Mar 22, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.4 Emotions

Before I entered therapy, I read Descartes' Error. I was introduced to the book by its author, Antonio Damasio, who's talk I attended at...

Feb 20, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.3 First Sessions

I honestly don't remember many details about my early sessions. I just have images of walking up to the building, finding the floor,...

Feb 15, 20232 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.2 Finding Help

Particularly after having a large panic attack, something I hadn't ever experienced before, I realized I definitely needed help. And I...

Jan 19, 20231 min read

I'm On A Stephen.Hunt, Pt.1 Something's Off

It's hard to explain how certain things begin. For me, it was just a feeling. Something is not right. I don't like this. I'm in a bad...